when you try your best and you dont succeeed

I'm on my own everyone. Well I have been on my own since I started grad school, really, but this time I think I've let go of wanting(yearning?) to be mentored and kind of accepted that my mentor hates me. But I still give a shit, an ability that my labmates apparently have lost some time ago. I give a lot of shit about my project and that is why I shall keep my back straight, with head held up high, take a deep breath.. they will not get the best of mee